Learning to Learn

When I enrolled in yoga teacher training, I had low aspirations regarding the teaching part. I was primarily interested in discovering the secret of why yoga makes me feel so good. I wanted to dive deep into the postures, traditions, and philosophy to understand how I could more fully weave yoga into my life off the mat. If along the way I learned how to lead a group of strangers through a sixty minute vinyasa class, that would be the icing on the cake.

I'm about halfway through the program now and my attitude toward teaching has shifted. I am much more excited about sharing my passion and creating opportunities for others to explore the magic of yoga. In fact, I can't wait! The trouble is that the more I learn about teaching yoga, the less prepared I feel to teach yoga. It's like I'm going backwards. Why do I feel like I know less after studying so much?

Early in the program we discussed the challenge of learning something new in psychology class. My teacher summarized it this way: our critical framework about an activity increases at a much more rapid pace than our ability to actually perform the activity. Basically when we first attempt to learn something new, we have very little baseline information about what it takes to do it well. This makes us believe that we will soon be accomplished at our new endeavor. But as we start to study intensively, the amount of information we acquire about how to do it well grows by leaps and bounds. All of a sudden mastery seems like it is so far away, and by comparison we seem to gain so little ground when we practice. This is the point at which many people quit. The goal seems unattainable so why continue to put in the time and effort?

I can relate. I have learned so much about yoga in the past nine weeks–even about the basic postures that I thought I had in the bag–that I now realize I don't know very much about yoga at all! I may have been practicing for eight years and I may take level 3 vinyasa classes, but learning how to teach yoga has forced me to admit that I am still a beginner. I thought that it would be relatively easy to talk someone through the poses I greet like old friends, but I am learning how many moving parts I have to consider as a yoga teacher–all at the same time! There's anatomy, breath work, alignment, cueing, observation, refinements, demonstrations, feedback, sequencing, adjustments...and the list goes on. 

The more I learn about teaching yoga the more I discover there is to learn. There is no finish line up ahead. But instead of being discouraged by this, I am greatly encouraged. I will be able to study yoga for my entire life and there will always be something new to learn–and to teach. 

There is a wonderful anecdote from Ira Glass on this topic that I first heard at yoga school. It's a great tribute to persistence when learning something new. You can find the quote here. Enjoy!

 

 

 

 

1-Up

Over the years I have repeatedly heard my yoga teachers say, “It’s never the same pose twice.” Each time you enter into a posture, it will look different than the last time and the time before that. My teachers have explained that there are countless variables that affect the shapes we are able to make with our bodies on any given day. These can be internal variables like whether or not you’ve eaten, the presence of muscle soreness, how much stress you are under, and your ability to concentrate. There are also external variables such as the temperature of the room, the time of day, and the music that is playing. Considering the unlimited combinations of these factors, each time you come into the pose you are approaching it from a different starting point–and that naturally changes where you end up.

I experience this every time I am on my mat. One day I might be feeling so strong and focused that I launch into crow pose and balance neatly on my hands. Another day I might not even attempt to pick my feet up off the ground, because my physical or emotional foundation is too shaky and I am afraid of a face plant. This happens in more basic poses, too, where there is no question about being able to make the shape yet it looks and feels different from one sequence to the next. My ability to execute a posture on any given day is certainly influenced by the skills I have built through years of practicing, but they're not the whole story.

This is really exciting to me. Each time I practice the pose I get to start over, or–as I sometimes think of it–I get to pass Go and collect $200. It doesn't matter that yesterday I toppled over while attempting crow pose. Today I am approaching it from a place I've never stood before, and I have no way of knowing the exact outcome. I only know it will be different.

I think this is a realistic yet optimistic way to view yoga practice and life as a whole. In each moment we get a chance to start anew. No one has ever taken the step I am about to take. And no matter the background of the situation or the patterns of behavior I typically fall into, I get to decide what I do with that moment. The result is unknown; if I don't like it, I have learned something. Then I can take a deep breath and push the reset button, because I get to start over. 

The Leg Bone's Connected to...

Everything in our bodies is intimately connected to everything else. This might not be a revelation but it is a theme that comes up almost daily in my anatomy and asana classes. Each joint is controlled by the actions of multiple muscles, some of which span across two or more distinct joints in the body. A muscle that moves the knee might also help to move the hip, for example. This means that movement in our body is rarely limited to the joint we are focused on.

I have recently noticed how this affects me in uttanasana (standing forward fold). It seems like a fairly straight-forward pose. Stand with your feet hip-distance apart and fold over from the waist to touch your hands to the ground. I have always been flexible, so touching my hands to the mat has never been challenging for me. However, now that I'm learning the detailed mechanics of the pose I have discovered that I've been doing more harm than good with this posture. Like most people who sit at a desk all day long, I have tight hamstrings. In order to come into uttanasana, something along the back of my body needs to lengthen so I can fold forward to touch my mat, and it should be my hamstrings. However, since my hamstrings are too tight to give me the length I need–but I force my hands to the ground anyway in my quest of the perfect shape–the movement spreads to a different part of my body. A pose that should provide a beneficial stretch to my hamstrings becomes one that puts a lot of strain on my lower back. With regular practice, this repetitive action can cause injury. 

As I was thinking about how actions in our bodies are not isolated but interrelated, I started to see how this is true off of the mat, too. Often we think that we can act a certain way in a situation and it won't have any impact on the rest of our daily life. In that moment we have a choice to take a right action or not, and for whatever reason we decide not to. Maybe I get cranky with the customer service agent when I call to find out why my cable bill doubled. Maybe you shout something nasty to a driver who cuts you off. Or these could be bigger actions, like taking the hotel towels home (because no one will ever miss them, right?) or flirting with a coworker even though you are married. These seem like discrete and inconsequential actions, ones that probably won't have any effect on the parts of our life that we care about. 

The trouble with these 'wrong' actions is that they don't just stay relegated to the immaterial parts of our life. If I angrily confront a server for messing up my order, that interaction impacts me beyond the walls of the restaurant even if I never give it a moment's thought after I walk out the door. The truth is that all of our actions count, even the little ones. Every time we avoid right action we make it a little easier to ignore right action the next time, and our wrong actions slowly become patterns and behaviors that seep into all parts of our life. 

When we continue to choose wrong actions, they eventually seem not so wrong anymore. If we continue to yell at other drivers when we get angry, it becomes easier to lash out at the people we care about. If we don't give our full attention to the cashier who is asking about our day, it reinforces that we don't need to be present when talking with family or friends. If you keep choosing to flirt with your coworker, your commitment to your partner and your marriage disintegrates.

The small actions that we think happen in isolated parts of our life can become habits that affect the whole. With regular practice, this repetitive action can cause injury.

 

Choose Your Focus

If you have practiced yoga, you have likely heard the teacher say to focus your eyes on something stationary as you undertake a balance such as tree pose. The lingo for this action is drishti, which loosely means resting your gaze on a fixed point. Concentrating on a static spot can be a tremendous help in keeping yourself steady when attempting to stand on one leg or perform a head stand, but it is useful when practicing basic postures as well. 

When you focus your eyes on something in this way, you are asking yourself to truly see what's in front of you. You aren't just looking at it or past it or through it; you are seeing whatever it is for what it is. This may be very different from our everyday experience, because most of us aren't very good at paying attention to what's happening right in front of us. Whether it's blowing through a stop sign on the way to work or kissing a partner on autopilot in a rush to get out the door, we are rarely giving our full attention to what is happening right now. 

When you bring your full awareness to the moment at hand, you may naturally find that your sensory experience is heightened because your thoughts become quieter. Your hearing might become sharper, allowing you to trace the sound of your breath. You might start to notice your sense of touch and where you are resting the weight in your feet, how it feels to be rooted down into your mat. Or your awareness of where you are in space might increase so you know without looking that your right arm has dropped from its position parallel to the ground. All of these sensations help you to be mindful of what is happening on your mat right now instead of simply plowing through the motions. 

As with most things in yoga, this is extremely relevant in our every day life. Being mindful is a commonplace phrase right now, and rightly so because it's important! But what does it mean? Being mindful simply means giving your full attention to the moment. It means ignoring the argument you might be replaying in your head and softening your mind instead, letting it go. It means using the senses to be right where you are, listening to the person speaking, feeling the rain on your face, or tasting the dinner that your partner made for you. We spend so much time rushing through one thing just to move onto the next. Instead, we could focus on where we are right now and put all that energy into the moment at hand.